needed this thank u
I haven’t updated in a while and wanted to say hello to all my lovelies.
I’m doing really well.
I relapsed once and it was last month, but I was really well for a while.
Stress got to me, but I won’t let it get me down.
I have a new support system, my sorority.
I got into Delta Phi Epsilon, and my sisters are my anchor now.
My friends are there for me as well and I feel pretty great.
Reid came back into my life for a little while, but things turned sour and I’m not sure if I can even will myself to love him anymore. So I think that that’s a sign to finally move on.
So yes, I’m still single and living the single life, trying to figure out myself and what I want for myself. I’m finding my happiness through myself and not others, and that’s really helping me out.
I have not been to therapy since July, and I know I should write to her and say “thank you” for everything she’s done for me, I will fairly soon, because I don’t think I’ll go back.
Shit hit the fan with my mother and I basically got disowned, so I’m not allowed to family events on her side anymore or to talk to her. (this is a fairly long story)
But I’m happy, and looking on the bright side of things.
Maybe it’s the fact that I’m finally getting rid of all the negative things surrounding me? I’m not sure, but I feel a lot better.
So I wanted to say hello and let you guys know how I was doing, and I want to hear about all of you. Write to me. <3
I love you all.
"Go for the person who makes you smile with all your heart and soul. The person whom you can’t wait to see or talk to. This is the person whom you’re meant to be with. The person that you know in your heart is right for you."
my dog is named Lucky
and sometimes he escapes from our house, so we have to go get Lucky
and sometimes it’ll be dark out, and we’ll be up all night to get Lucky
I don’t even know ANYMORE XD
Yeah I have scars. Go ahead, stare. Point. Whisper. Call me “goth, emo, cutter, crazy, mental, fucked up” Go ahead. I know you’re thinking it, but that doesn’t mean I care. Every scar on my body is a battle I won. I know that doesn’t make sense to you and honestly I hope it never does. Just remember that nothing you can say to me is worse than my own thoughts of myself. You can’t hurt me.
no just no, why do you self promote you on such a perfect picture OMFG
this isn’t fucking perfect. yay they are sticking their finger up wow. and they have cuts on their wrist.. how’s that fucking perfect?! self harm isn’t “perfect” or “beautiful” okay. it’s fucking sad. fucking hell. i hate this. you cannot glamorize something like this. no wonder why people think all self harmers are attention seekers. fuck.
It’s fucking perfect because of how brave they are and how fucking far they have come. Self harm is fucking horrible. The fact that they can be brave enough to post about their struggles and how they have overcome it all is fucking heroic. So here’s a big fuck you for being a judgmental twat.
Okay, this picture brings both happiness and sadness to me. I was a self harmer. Yes, self harm is sad, it shouldn’t be glamorized. But this person is really amazing. You have said everything I’ve been wanting to say. My scars show and yes I get stared at and they whisper and one time this summer the girl didn’t stop staring and I flipped her off. It was my struggle and I got by it, I was a self harmer, but I got better. This picture is wonderful to me because of how far I’ve come and how far I still have to go. Thank you <3
Ridiculously cute boy 10’clock
awe he’s sneezing
turn around again so i can see your damn face again
I said turn around asshole
SHIT FUCK NO NOT LIKE THIS NOT WHEN IM TAKING A PIC GOD NO
I’m sitting here laughing my ass off. THIS HAS HAPPENED TO ME! XD
Hai guys :)
So basically this semester is one of my best :)
I’m doing better emotionally and mentally and haven’t relapsed and I really don’t think I am. I have control over my emotions and I’m feeling a lot better about myself in general. I’m also keeping myself really busy this semester too. :)
I’m already working part time and I get around 30 hours, a full time student in 5 classes, committed member to Active Minds, and I’m rushing for Delta Phi Epsilon at my university. Oh and I just applied for a babysitting job for Thursday nights xD
So fairly busy :) but it’s making me really happy and I’m making more friend’s this semester too. I’m definitely getting better and I’m still single. :) I guess you can say I’m finding myself right now and it may be better for me to be alone right now. And I like it :)
I’m glad I’m back on here. I’ll be able to help everyone more again and even more so because I’m getting better. I love all of you and thank my followers that have been by my side through everything