CaitieMaren

I’ve decided.

That I’m going to get “Strength” tattooed on my left rib.

I know it’s another tattoo that has to deal with my recovery, but I love the idea of it.

I’ve been thinking about it more and more. At first I thought it was silly because I already have “Promise” as a tattoo and that’s part of my recovery.

However, I’m starting to think that strength has a lot more meaning behind it then I first realized. Especially because I need it for everything that’s going on in my life and everything that will happen in the future.

I understand that I need to be strong in order to be the psychologist that I want to be. And that my cutting problem isn’t something that will be allowed in my future, since I want to do this as my career. And I want a family more then anything else, and I need to be stable in order for all of that to happen.

I also know that I need to be strong with everything that is going on between my mother and that I need to understand that what I’m doing is for myself and not for her. Because she doesn’t deserve all of this to be done for her. I made myself and I was my own mother.

There are other things that strength has a meaning toward in my life but there isn’t enough room to explain all of that.

I think it’s a lovely idea and I’ve even thinking of added “to move forward” underneath it. Not sure yet. But I do want “Strength.”